This is the new wall in my room. Soon there will be spray painted flowers and branches imprinted on it. I love murals a lot. Not sure why but if I am a visual artist I will definitely go for mural studies.

This is another one. From the left, Lynette, Tiffany, Cherilyn and myself. These girls are all so sweet, except for Hao Yi, she is "SPECIAL"

This is me, Wang Ying and Jennifer. This is the only clear photo that I have from my birthday party. So sad, which means I need to have a new digi cam. Anyone wants to donate to the Ian Loy Foundation?

Gals of 2Hope,this is what I am telling you about! Join me this Sunday ya

RED CARD

I have to blog this. It is the first in history and it has to be with a bloke with no sense whatsoever about soccer being just a game. It is really silly, if any of you were in the mind of ian loy during the argument, it will be like a kid whose candy has been taken away and I am the antagonist. Since when??? I have never had real problems playing the game that I play and this person has to appear and cause the whole galaxy of common sense to fall apart.

Like someone say "Common sense is really not common at all" At the end of the day I must say I contributed to it. But it is really silly, right after the incident, I ran to him and apologize straight! He said I am not sincere...I apologize again...He walked away. Sigh...it is me, I happened to be there and he happened to be there, hard luck or rather a testing of temper. I must say I improved a lot, if I were younger, i would have busted his face. That I have God to thank for really. God is good as His goodness and mercies shall follow me forever and ever.

Well I am the first of Brighton's history to be RED CARDED or banned for a game. So silly, a game of passion turned malicious just by not having a bigger heart. He kept insisting that I am out to injure him??? Then again this person has real issues that only he himself can handle, I cannot help. I played my part and next time I'll just steer away from him if I am ever playing against him again.

I am thinking about 2 Hope again! Hope they can come for BBQ and fun games this Sunday. Are you gals coming or not???

This is Nodame the anime version. Enjoy the OST i have on the blog.

Nodame POWER!!!

Been spending some time watching my favorite Jdrama online titled "Nodame Cantabile Live Action" There are some life lessons I certainly can take over there. She fights so hard just to be on par with someone she really loves and she fights with the things she loves most which is music. She don't dare to face music as it is but to overcome the barrier, she does it in order to be close to him but in turn she becomes a musical genius which Chiaki Sempai already is.

Both of them have the same love but another layer is within which is their love for one another which is subtle but endearing. I need to strive, but for who and what? I need to start journaling, otherwise my students from the AMAZING 2 HOPE will definitely fine this bloggy real lame and boring.

My birthday has passed and boy did I started my own party. Total cost is about $160+ so it is still alright. The girls from 2Hope were their usual self, so happy to see them all, they are like related to me as I am always elated to see them. Though not all of them came but it was okay cos I did invite them in the midst of their exams. Hope it did not cost them any distractions from their revision. Thank you aunties and uncles who let their daughters to my party.

Perhaps it will be the last party I will ever hold for myself. Next time I will rather have small dinner with a few close ones. It isn't because I didn't enjoy myself but there was just a tad feeling of loneliness that crept into the whole "birthdayness" of everything. Angela was there but it felt that she was sacrificing then wanting to come as it showed on her profile. However I cannot complain though she gave me a wonderful pre-birthday bash which I really don't need and don't usually celebrate but she insist so I patronize but it was a really sweet and I am appreciative. It is just that I just do not feel like it.

I am really beginning to suspect it is the nostalgia of my father's death and the whole pacifying thing about my immediate family which made me like this. And of course a whole load of issues which I sincerely offloaded.

I need to do something, something that will build my self confidence up to whole new level, I need a breakthrough. God?

This is the result of being late for SOT classes during my stint at CHC. We have to do area cleaning on weekends to pay as a penalty for being late. And these are my cleaning buddies. The picture above almost look like we are a boy band doesn't it? Praise God even in hardships like these :)

This is UTM [University Technology of Malaysia] grp from City Harvest KL.They are a great bunch of people and their passion is indeed infectious. We all have a common DNA which is the excellence of Life in Christ Jesus.

This is the infamous KYOKO-san...she makes the poo, eats the poo and the cycle continues but I love her all the same :)

Kyoko, a dog that eats poo!

Everytime when she shits, that is the exact time I have to clear it. However if i do not do just that, my dear doggie will go to it and munch down as if it is the most delicious dessert made available to her by her. Wah lau! How can a dog be so stupid, eat shit everyweek! Sometimes when she licks me, I am like YUCKS now. Hence every bath time, I will have some dettol and toothpaste with me to de-sanitize the dog. However she is really cure at times where she does whatever you want when you have food in your hands. She sits, she lies down and barks, not forgetting fetching bones and balls. She really has a bad habit. Whenever the food [I mean real dog food] is serve late to her, she throws a princess's tantrum! She runs amok around the house and pulls all the shoes stacked up and jumps around aimlessly to get your attention saying "Where's my food you DUMMY of a human ass, I am going to destroy this house if got no food ROAR!"

Argh, having a dog is a real responsibility. Gonna give it a bathe soon, stinks of something sour on her, hope she is not rotting or anything. Come to think of it, it has been quite sometime since I did something crazy with her like chili padi, and having her in the fridge, what should I try next :) i love my dog.

God Of My Forever by City Harvest Church

God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me over
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace
On this altar I’ve written my life
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

God of my forever and forever I’m with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever and forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King

God of my all I’ve surrendered
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for you has grown
Nothing matters when You’re here with me
In the end just to hear You say “well done”
Bowing before Your throne

Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way

I love this song. It played when I was graduating from SOT/CHC. I was thinking about my path and journey on in the future. Was thinking about Angela with it also. He is faithful hence I be faithful.

Ian today

Blogging returns only because my students from CHIJ St Nicholas inspired me to. They are the best bunch of gals that I have taught since i have taught. They are all so cheerful and intellectually engaging. Watching them put up such powerful presentation made my day last Monday.

People say that my blog is dead, but in my life and beliefs, resurrection is real and still can happen, maybe not as how people will see it literally but perhaps from a metaphoric view as well. Life without purpose is also dead, but once a God size vision is placed in your heart, your vibrancy of life goes up the charts once again. I have officially graduated from SOT. What is next?

1) Want to establish myself as a theatre practitioner, be a light and salt in Singapore by influencing trends, not running away from it and stay hidden in the church that might breed righteousness that is self taught, not God thought.

2) Want to grow my cell group from 14 members to 20 members. Anybody interested in joining me? Fun and purpose guaranteed.

So far, this is it. Then of course I have to work fairly hard. Though I have yearning to be a Pastor but I do not have that calling yet. My SOT pastor once said, if you feel that your track is always getting blocked, maybe you are on the wrong track? I am going to grow my gifting and be a great influence. Give back to what God has given me.

God I love my young people, bless them. I love my students also, bless them to stay cute and smart always. Love you 2 Hope :)

Check this out, it is Ps Ming and me snapping a shot before the end of the ceremony.

That is me and brother Bobby [Dean of SOT] It has been an honor to learn from him. Learnt much :)

Graduating from CHC School of Theology. Mixed feelings all around, only wished that I could have worked a tad bit harder when I was in school. My perspective is definitely changed due to the teachings of cultural mandate. I shall be the SALT and LIGHT of this world.

Our CG Tai Tai is on the prowl. Just when i turn my back, she sits on the rocket, brandishing that she can fit in all small spaces. Just you wait Carrie! ROAR!

There is no space for ian in the rocket, Val and Sandy are already in. So how? All my spare tyre's fault :(

You see Sandy? Trying to put her pilot skills to the test. Will she bring the CG to a place further than Singapore Isle?

Getting ready to blast off to Sentosa! Valerie is feeling the chills of excitement already.