never thought I could just let go...it has been a week and in four hours time it'll be my birthday. How "wonderful" spending the eve of my brithday alone.
Wish God can be a pal and hang with me downtown.There was a time when all this happened before. The thing about these downs is that they leave you with a revoking after taste in your life.And in this matter, it is about a relationship that went on for two plus years.I want to stop thinking about it but can't. Hope it isn't a curse, but the fact of the matter is that it got off in the wrong foot.Gotten together in my least spiritually strong era.And now God gave me more and telling me to stop, I did.All I did in His command...What He want of me?...I am running away now, like Joseph to Potiphar's wife, I want to run. Dear God, teach me to run please! I'm on my knees. I want a refresh anointing upon my life to burst out from the ashes of sluggard gloom. I need to grow. Give direction Father!
Police days are ending in three months time. It was like yesterday which I will complain non stop about it.Can't wait to start the whole theatre engine working again, though money does come into an issue. I owe Mrs Koh $586 for the Korean trip.You know, she told me that the trip was $1500, never did she say about the tax or anything of surplus.I need to go away for awhile after this, need to find God in all areas.Need to remind myself to pay $$$ of course...sigh...I need a sugar mommy! Or a DIVINE INTERVENTION to let me get my hands on some cash to pay her back. Literally living off with scraps...I am that poor.God if I don't pay you your dues, pls warn me harshly...Cos the thoughts of evil desires arises everytime I thrive in your SPirit.
I thank God for Angela, Mel and Serena. They stood by me when I am at the bottom of the pits. God pls give them portions of blessings which they truly deserves.
I wanna be alone with Him now.Cheerios ( .\/. );;
Sunday, October 3
Saturday, October 2
Friday, October 1
Thursday, September 30
watching "Singapore Idol" waiting for friend Chin Hao to appear. Really hope he goes thru though but my mom and I are rooting for Maia. She got nice cheeks and an adorable child.
today took half day again.Another of this nonsense and I'll have no more leave to go mission trip.I have this stupid thought not to go but I know I just have to. I pray that God will provide me the resources to ship me there. Thailand,watch out for the HOLY SPIRIT! In Jesus name be awed by God. Indeed God works and plans things in His own time, though it is quite a tad bit muddled right now :( dug up some of the past letters she sent me, about some theory that humans enjoy doing things that are wrong, like you know blatantly that it is wrong but still do it. However, how we know what's right and wrong in this world...I put it to God's light and then it comes to pass. Sigh...I'm such evil perhaps in another person's world...different lah
Chin Hao sang well...but the boring judges slammed it, WHAT THE...! David deserves more though I think he can do ballads which suits him or maybe I am wrong.
Hang out with Mel last night, feeling the effects only in the morning but it was great company. Though Jap horror flicks really not up to par with Korean ones liao...sigh...Nihon, Nane a ten no? Gonna catch My Sassy Girl later, maybe it'll show me destiny somehow...ya sure!
There is a grey bear staring right at me
with a "Me to You" sign on it's foot
grey suggests sadness
my grey bear will be in the cupboard soon
don't want to be sad
though I know it'll take a *damn* long time
need some royal chubs to torture...hehehe
cheerios
looking forward to Sunday, able to be with Christian Community again :)
today took half day again.Another of this nonsense and I'll have no more leave to go mission trip.I have this stupid thought not to go but I know I just have to. I pray that God will provide me the resources to ship me there. Thailand,watch out for the HOLY SPIRIT! In Jesus name be awed by God. Indeed God works and plans things in His own time, though it is quite a tad bit muddled right now :( dug up some of the past letters she sent me, about some theory that humans enjoy doing things that are wrong, like you know blatantly that it is wrong but still do it. However, how we know what's right and wrong in this world...I put it to God's light and then it comes to pass. Sigh...I'm such evil perhaps in another person's world...different lah
Chin Hao sang well...but the boring judges slammed it, WHAT THE...! David deserves more though I think he can do ballads which suits him or maybe I am wrong.
Hang out with Mel last night, feeling the effects only in the morning but it was great company. Though Jap horror flicks really not up to par with Korean ones liao...sigh...Nihon, Nane a ten no? Gonna catch My Sassy Girl later, maybe it'll show me destiny somehow...ya sure!
There is a grey bear staring right at me
with a "Me to You" sign on it's foot
grey suggests sadness
my grey bear will be in the cupboard soon
don't want to be sad
though I know it'll take a *damn* long time
need some royal chubs to torture...hehehe
cheerios
looking forward to Sunday, able to be with Christian Community again :)
Tuesday, September 28
It is time to blog.
It is six days away to my birthday and I did the unthinkable
I chased away the girl whom I promised to love and a girl who will love me for all that I am.
Why??? Ian.
My Dad's death anniversary just passed. Perhaps it is a subconcious memory that locks all my sad moments into this period of time. Never did I really want this to happen but I hear the voice "Let go" a long time ago. I don't want to to cheapen her by being with her now cos we are in such wreck. We stepped into the part of the garden where God says no and now we are paying the price for it.I want to reach for God but can't, and I am doing more harm than good to Cec.
Perhaps it is for the better. She ask me if I want her to forget me...of course I will say no. But then it would be a curse! Perhaps it is a curse to be a guy already.Doing all this without realising the effects it has on the other party.
She is knocking on my door today, and I shut.How painful is that...very very very*
God has a answer to all this fiasco. Giving the notion for the senior pastor to talk about finding destiny and the right partner...THANKS PASTOR TIAK...you make it so wonderful for me...*shit* I'll just listen to God...and it is true enough for me to hear it clear "let go"
maybe in another three years...Yuan will be ready and uplifted by God because she reached it. She deserves better...not me...I'm just a honest puck, who is poor and not realistic.
Relationships are such headaches. It qualifies to love only when expectations are met, when not met, things start happening...sad things. For Cec, she still loves at all odds. There is a huge scar in my heart but in order for God to come in,this must go out first. Lord Jesus, please take me...cleanse me and take me...out of this place.
Sitting with the leaders of youth ministry was a dread last friday. All they can say is please do what is right, break up with her, it is your destiny we are talking about...easy said than done...they don't know the emotional roller-coaster that goes thru before all this. So bring your prophetic theories and ship out...I need listeners than captains...care givers then telling where to get it myself...love is a strange thing. But it is all gone now.
Corinthians 13...failed...drastically
ian and cec lies here in the wake of 290904
abruptly...only He knows the future
He and I have today. Tom is yet to come.
She'll find someone better.
It is six days away to my birthday and I did the unthinkable
I chased away the girl whom I promised to love and a girl who will love me for all that I am.
Why??? Ian.
My Dad's death anniversary just passed. Perhaps it is a subconcious memory that locks all my sad moments into this period of time. Never did I really want this to happen but I hear the voice "Let go" a long time ago. I don't want to to cheapen her by being with her now cos we are in such wreck. We stepped into the part of the garden where God says no and now we are paying the price for it.I want to reach for God but can't, and I am doing more harm than good to Cec.
Perhaps it is for the better. She ask me if I want her to forget me...of course I will say no. But then it would be a curse! Perhaps it is a curse to be a guy already.Doing all this without realising the effects it has on the other party.
She is knocking on my door today, and I shut.How painful is that...very very very*
God has a answer to all this fiasco. Giving the notion for the senior pastor to talk about finding destiny and the right partner...THANKS PASTOR TIAK...you make it so wonderful for me...*shit* I'll just listen to God...and it is true enough for me to hear it clear "let go"
maybe in another three years...Yuan will be ready and uplifted by God because she reached it. She deserves better...not me...I'm just a honest puck, who is poor and not realistic.
Relationships are such headaches. It qualifies to love only when expectations are met, when not met, things start happening...sad things. For Cec, she still loves at all odds. There is a huge scar in my heart but in order for God to come in,this must go out first. Lord Jesus, please take me...cleanse me and take me...out of this place.
Sitting with the leaders of youth ministry was a dread last friday. All they can say is please do what is right, break up with her, it is your destiny we are talking about...easy said than done...they don't know the emotional roller-coaster that goes thru before all this. So bring your prophetic theories and ship out...I need listeners than captains...care givers then telling where to get it myself...love is a strange thing. But it is all gone now.
Corinthians 13...failed...drastically
ian and cec lies here in the wake of 290904
abruptly...only He knows the future
He and I have today. Tom is yet to come.
She'll find someone better.
Friday, January 23
girl in a corner crying
teddy bear on one hand, rubbing her eye with the other
she looked up, showing tearful eyes to her mother
"you have one already"her mom said
her hopes of a new toy surely it fades
they went home though with each other
girl in a corner crying
teddy bear on one hand, holding her mom with the other~ianloy
another day worthy to be forgotten passes
what new day will God bring tomorrow
in Him I will surely trust
in Him nothing is of not certain
praise to Him always
woke up and can't sleep
writing blog
as the time races within the clock
what new day will God bring
as he has the keys to the future and destiny of our locks
teddy bear on one hand, rubbing her eye with the other
she looked up, showing tearful eyes to her mother
"you have one already"her mom said
her hopes of a new toy surely it fades
they went home though with each other
girl in a corner crying
teddy bear on one hand, holding her mom with the other~ianloy
another day worthy to be forgotten passes
what new day will God bring tomorrow
in Him I will surely trust
in Him nothing is of not certain
praise to Him always
woke up and can't sleep
writing blog
as the time races within the clock
what new day will God bring
as he has the keys to the future and destiny of our locks
Wednesday, January 14
i couldn't sleep cos I had minor squabble with Yuan.
looks like it has been a long long time since i have updated.
no more transfer already
staying put at Bedok station for good. And perhaps it is a good thing after all cos I have
a tad bit more time
but yuan says not enough
but I want to try
God must come first naturally then all will fall in place
really it would, i just know
I NEED TO LISTEN TO YUAN
cos she mean well for me. I will have a resolution
that is to sleep 1130pm everynight on the dot...
I would...I really would
to prove to my dear I am serious about her
minor setbacks today cos of Prayer meeting and late dinner but it won't stop
me. yuan, you must give me chance ya
you can have space to be angry but you cannot have space to neglect me kay
or abandon me
really love you a lot though you bicker about my bad habits a lot
for own good. ya
God was exremely real on Sunday
talk to Esther whom thru God's grace came down to church
still her shy nature but lovable
just like the three monkeys i know that live in ubi
Pray that God will help her in all ways to reach the spiritual Father that lives ever and ever
looks like it has been a long long time since i have updated.
no more transfer already
staying put at Bedok station for good. And perhaps it is a good thing after all cos I have
a tad bit more time
but yuan says not enough
but I want to try
God must come first naturally then all will fall in place
really it would, i just know
I NEED TO LISTEN TO YUAN
cos she mean well for me. I will have a resolution
that is to sleep 1130pm everynight on the dot...
I would...I really would
to prove to my dear I am serious about her
minor setbacks today cos of Prayer meeting and late dinner but it won't stop
me. yuan, you must give me chance ya
you can have space to be angry but you cannot have space to neglect me kay
or abandon me
really love you a lot though you bicker about my bad habits a lot
for own good. ya
God was exremely real on Sunday
talk to Esther whom thru God's grace came down to church
still her shy nature but lovable
just like the three monkeys i know that live in ubi
Pray that God will help her in all ways to reach the spiritual Father that lives ever and ever
Saturday, November 1
Today is stay-in Saturday
Went for SGT course in the morning then came back home to have
a snooze marathon till now.
Receive mail from Luanne. Miss her a lot. All those fun times
in Lasalle-SIA and playing mahjong...i want them all back :(
Not seeing Yuan for awhile. Don't understand how she can take it...perhaps
it is the drive of exam and stuff. I'll just find other things to do.
See lah Ian, never go out with your other friends, now very awkard to call them out right???
Stupid me.
I guess I have to start letting go and not being so commited commited. Not that I don't love Yuan.
I do love her very much but I think I have forsaken my own space for her.
I need to come back to my orgin being. Wah lau...so many 'I'
would sound like I'm very "ego"
TRANSFER is within my grasp*
My head of office has given me two weeks to consider my transfer
from now there is one week left
Want to make myself happier really...don't mind going to somewhere nearer to my place
the mornings would be much much better for me
Miss my dear...STOP IT IAN
so whiny!!!
just forget about it and do the rest of the things you want to do always lah
1) Shopping
2) Meeting up with old friends
3) Readings
4) GO to Zoo myself
Maybe I should go there tom. I just like to see animals.
Went for SGT course in the morning then came back home to have
a snooze marathon till now.
Receive mail from Luanne. Miss her a lot. All those fun times
in Lasalle-SIA and playing mahjong...i want them all back :(
Not seeing Yuan for awhile. Don't understand how she can take it...perhaps
it is the drive of exam and stuff. I'll just find other things to do.
See lah Ian, never go out with your other friends, now very awkard to call them out right???
Stupid me.
I guess I have to start letting go and not being so commited commited. Not that I don't love Yuan.
I do love her very much but I think I have forsaken my own space for her.
I need to come back to my orgin being. Wah lau...so many 'I'
would sound like I'm very "ego"
TRANSFER is within my grasp*
My head of office has given me two weeks to consider my transfer
from now there is one week left
Want to make myself happier really...don't mind going to somewhere nearer to my place
the mornings would be much much better for me
Miss my dear...STOP IT IAN
so whiny!!!
just forget about it and do the rest of the things you want to do always lah
1) Shopping
2) Meeting up with old friends
3) Readings
4) GO to Zoo myself
Maybe I should go there tom. I just like to see animals.
Wednesday, October 15
tom is Service Excellence Day 2003
for the Police Force
oerforming in a musical for them to highlight the
importance of Service Excellence *bored*
Throughout all the rehearsals
I just couldn't concentrate cos of the workload
thinking what my mdm is saying about me behind my back
to SPF I think I am just a number
...very easy to be erase from the rest and replaced by another
this is what my mdm thought me also
besides the many useful things she teaches me
How can you casually say that you want to transfer me???
do you know how haunting is that???
I know I may be average in my job but I know I am good for something but not
in your DAMN BLOODY F**KING office
don't even give me space to think
when you want something...you expect it to be done beautifully and everything
well...life isn't like that
WAKE UP
though it can
it depends on what kind of mentality you are going forth with
Even me and Yuan don't go really smooth
but squabbles do happen
then constructive building happens between us
But between me and you, MDM
kiss my ASS *(&()&#@$%
(*_*)
Argh!
feel so much better now.
The same old thing...can't wait till March 2005 (ORD)
for the Police Force
oerforming in a musical for them to highlight the
importance of Service Excellence *bored*
Throughout all the rehearsals
I just couldn't concentrate cos of the workload
thinking what my mdm is saying about me behind my back
to SPF I think I am just a number
...very easy to be erase from the rest and replaced by another
this is what my mdm thought me also
besides the many useful things she teaches me
How can you casually say that you want to transfer me???
do you know how haunting is that???
I know I may be average in my job but I know I am good for something but not
in your DAMN BLOODY F**KING office
don't even give me space to think
when you want something...you expect it to be done beautifully and everything
well...life isn't like that
WAKE UP
though it can
it depends on what kind of mentality you are going forth with
Even me and Yuan don't go really smooth
but squabbles do happen
then constructive building happens between us
But between me and you, MDM
kiss my ASS *(&()&#@$%
(*_*)
Argh!
feel so much better now.
The same old thing...can't wait till March 2005 (ORD)
Monday, October 13
Today sucks big time.
Total evident that my mdm doesn't trust me.
I told the organisers my predicament in the PNSF dept that I am in
that I have responsibilities which I find it hard to shun
and not sure if my mdm would allow me to go for the
many rehearsals they have scheduled
for me.
Then they have to email my commander then cc to my mdm a nasty mail from
I don't know who.
Quote "SC Cpl Ian Loy expresses fear and doubts over his attendance on the scheduled rehearsals."
Wah lau...who in the right mind would right such a insensitive mail
no tact involved at all.
Feel so lousy. Worst of all...
My mdm says I'll be better off transferred out.
When she said that, the funny thing was
that happiness and sunshine came bustling
into my mind.
I don't mind the transfer as it'll really take the needless pressure off from me.
I miss my dear
very very much.
She gotten her driving licence already
better get mine soon otherwise I'll lose out
but I won't
Singapore transport system is already so good. Who knows
in future, no cars are to be on the road.
Love you dear.
Can't wait till the next time i see you
Church has been delightful lately
don't know why
maybe God is trying to get me back but I'm still at halt
(*_*) bothers!
Total evident that my mdm doesn't trust me.
I told the organisers my predicament in the PNSF dept that I am in
that I have responsibilities which I find it hard to shun
and not sure if my mdm would allow me to go for the
many rehearsals they have scheduled
for me.
Then they have to email my commander then cc to my mdm a nasty mail from
I don't know who.
Quote "SC Cpl Ian Loy expresses fear and doubts over his attendance on the scheduled rehearsals."
Wah lau...who in the right mind would right such a insensitive mail
no tact involved at all.
Feel so lousy. Worst of all...
My mdm says I'll be better off transferred out.
When she said that, the funny thing was
that happiness and sunshine came bustling
into my mind.
I don't mind the transfer as it'll really take the needless pressure off from me.
I miss my dear
very very much.
She gotten her driving licence already
better get mine soon otherwise I'll lose out
but I won't
Singapore transport system is already so good. Who knows
in future, no cars are to be on the road.
Love you dear.
Can't wait till the next time i see you
Church has been delightful lately
don't know why
maybe God is trying to get me back but I'm still at halt
(*_*) bothers!
Friday, September 26
wooo...longtime since I've blogged
anyway I'm in this MUSICAL now
for this coming Service Excellence Day happening in Oct
got chosen for a role.
Happy enough as it is the closest thing to theatre which I miss a lot.
Don't really like musical though it is still a form of art,
not my art but can learn lots from it.
17th of September passed not long ago
it has been one year since enlistment...woohoo!!!
another one and half year to go, actually one year and five months.
Please end fast...I have so much catching up to do as all my
friends are flying with the wind and I'm stuck in a can. ARGH!@$%&
just came out from bath, so refreshing
Tomorrow starts another boring day
will there be something to look forward to?
will perhaps some dinner my god sis parents will whip up
if I have the luck that is
anyways you know civil servants are always prone to be affected by whatever is
pro-people, hence they actually involved us the Police National Service people to join this
run at Bukit Timah Hill...and make it as if it is a game? Sigh, and all for promoting health...
Once a month or suggestion isn't enough to pink up your health, MR COMMANDER!
Oh goodness. Hope no FBI or ISD is looking thru this. Anyway I'm speaking through the
bottom of my heart.
They'll need a program straighten out each week, in order to have a concious healthy living...bleh
want to vomit liao...
I just want to finish and pack up.
anyway I'm in this MUSICAL now
for this coming Service Excellence Day happening in Oct
got chosen for a role.
Happy enough as it is the closest thing to theatre which I miss a lot.
Don't really like musical though it is still a form of art,
not my art but can learn lots from it.
17th of September passed not long ago
it has been one year since enlistment...woohoo!!!
another one and half year to go, actually one year and five months.
Please end fast...I have so much catching up to do as all my
friends are flying with the wind and I'm stuck in a can. ARGH!@$%&
just came out from bath, so refreshing
Tomorrow starts another boring day
will there be something to look forward to?
will perhaps some dinner my god sis parents will whip up
if I have the luck that is
anyways you know civil servants are always prone to be affected by whatever is
pro-people, hence they actually involved us the Police National Service people to join this
run at Bukit Timah Hill...and make it as if it is a game? Sigh, and all for promoting health...
Once a month or suggestion isn't enough to pink up your health, MR COMMANDER!
Oh goodness. Hope no FBI or ISD is looking thru this. Anyway I'm speaking through the
bottom of my heart.
They'll need a program straighten out each week, in order to have a concious healthy living...bleh
want to vomit liao...
I just want to finish and pack up.
Saturday, August 23
Thursday, August 21
Going for badminton selection tomorrow
quite excited actually
but a bit of a down mood today as I heard that
one of my close friends gotten Shell-Nac scholarship from NAC
I know i should be happy for her but I felt that I can excel in that area too
I'm wasting my two years in NS really
just doing my duty for the nation i guess
just can't escape
better read more to improve my theory on theatre so
that I can burst all out when I'm out of
the cage.
Lost my certificate stating my scholarship in 2001
Sigh...it's fine...I'll just ask from them again, if not I'll work doubly hard again
to improve my craft.
Going Sentosa for Real Run Nike
before that staying with Yuan's family at shangri-la
can't wait, though I have to run 10km
better run my best...the faster I run...the faster I get to spend time with Yuan.
These past days has been tough
jog and exercise to get the excess weight off my tummy.
I have to continue
I have too
I must
Argh!!! WILL POWER
where are you???
I need a driving license soon
my shorty friend had one already and she drove me home
so embarrassing. Well good and happy for her.
Hope I can take my test together with yuan, though
she already signed up due to a saboh
by RINA...
If you RINA, reading this...I WANT TO BOX YOU!!!
heh...kidding lah
Oyasumi (^_^)^
quite excited actually
but a bit of a down mood today as I heard that
one of my close friends gotten Shell-Nac scholarship from NAC
I know i should be happy for her but I felt that I can excel in that area too
I'm wasting my two years in NS really
just doing my duty for the nation i guess
just can't escape
better read more to improve my theory on theatre so
that I can burst all out when I'm out of
the cage.
Lost my certificate stating my scholarship in 2001
Sigh...it's fine...I'll just ask from them again, if not I'll work doubly hard again
to improve my craft.
Going Sentosa for Real Run Nike
before that staying with Yuan's family at shangri-la
can't wait, though I have to run 10km
better run my best...the faster I run...the faster I get to spend time with Yuan.
These past days has been tough
jog and exercise to get the excess weight off my tummy.
I have to continue
I have too
I must
Argh!!! WILL POWER
where are you???
I need a driving license soon
my shorty friend had one already and she drove me home
so embarrassing. Well good and happy for her.
Hope I can take my test together with yuan, though
she already signed up due to a saboh
by RINA...
If you RINA, reading this...I WANT TO BOX YOU!!!
heh...kidding lah
Oyasumi (^_^)^
Thursday, August 14
Tomorrow's IPPT is cancelled
sigh...have to report to station early to inform the officers...what a bother!
Got a hell of a tan with Yuan and Sunday
though we did squabble a little
made her cry and stuff
cos I told her about going over to rox's place for dinner and such
I too told her that me and rox are just best of buds
I understand why Yuan is upset
because I have to tell her before hand and not after
she too felt a tad bit lonely as CS is in aussie land
she can't share woes regarding me with anyone.
I feel terrible
I have bullied my partner
but I really love her
I'll just have to listen more I guess
need more communication.
Very Zzzzz...(@_@) _
need to crawl to bed
another day continue to bicker on here.
Goodnight my fellow monkeys
sigh...have to report to station early to inform the officers...what a bother!
Got a hell of a tan with Yuan and Sunday
though we did squabble a little
made her cry and stuff
cos I told her about going over to rox's place for dinner and such
I too told her that me and rox are just best of buds
I understand why Yuan is upset
because I have to tell her before hand and not after
she too felt a tad bit lonely as CS is in aussie land
she can't share woes regarding me with anyone.
I feel terrible
I have bullied my partner
but I really love her
I'll just have to listen more I guess
need more communication.
Very Zzzzz...(@_@) _
need to crawl to bed
another day continue to bicker on here.
Goodnight my fellow monkeys
Sunday, August 3
Evening already...
well it is a whole new experience not to care about anything or anyone today
felt a tad bit empty but at least there isn't anxiety
lying to myself again
maybe we won't even talk to each other anymore
perhaps that will solve the problems we have altogether
i don't know why things have to become like this.
Everything was fine...just because you don't like something, the whole world must be in it with you
just do it with your own effort and be happy (.\/.) or say it out...don't follow and regret, grumbling don't solve anything.
Sigh...what did I do???
What is a soulmate?
where can it be found?
How can it complete me?
Maybe the answer can never be found till...
I still not sure what have done
perhaps this is better for both of us
some breathing space
maybe this is a start for more quarrels to come
stupid quarrels that is
hate it hate it hate it
ya
perhaps
silence is really golden...f**k it!
well it is a whole new experience not to care about anything or anyone today
felt a tad bit empty but at least there isn't anxiety
lying to myself again
maybe we won't even talk to each other anymore
perhaps that will solve the problems we have altogether
i don't know why things have to become like this.
Everything was fine...just because you don't like something, the whole world must be in it with you
just do it with your own effort and be happy (.\/.) or say it out...don't follow and regret, grumbling don't solve anything.
Sigh...what did I do???
What is a soulmate?
where can it be found?
How can it complete me?
Maybe the answer can never be found till...
I still not sure what have done
perhaps this is better for both of us
some breathing space
maybe this is a start for more quarrels to come
stupid quarrels that is
hate it hate it hate it
ya
perhaps
silence is really golden...f**k it!
Another Sunday to stay at home.
and this time because of Macdonald's
as simple as that
Maybe her mom is right that it'll be dificult for both us.
Happiness is hard to find already.
don't really know what lies ahead of us if this continues.
what am I going to do today?
don't feel like doing anything also
just sleep thru my sunday
anyway I'm quite used to it already
or should I meet up with some friends...
hmmm...nah...stay at home
I guess I can live with this silence for awhile
tomorrow August workload comes
my mdm is still the same.
Gotten my SAR two days ago.
It's something like a report card which I need to fill it myself first
hope I can get a good grade, then again...
I'm only there cause it is a have to
do what you DEEM fit thinks it'll make you happy
who cares who oppose your idea of happiness...just do!
of course must be of positive category.
Maybe this will be my last blog.
cause...
cause...
cause...
forget it
and this time because of Macdonald's
as simple as that
Maybe her mom is right that it'll be dificult for both us.
Happiness is hard to find already.
don't really know what lies ahead of us if this continues.
what am I going to do today?
don't feel like doing anything also
just sleep thru my sunday
anyway I'm quite used to it already
or should I meet up with some friends...
hmmm...nah...stay at home
I guess I can live with this silence for awhile
tomorrow August workload comes
my mdm is still the same.
Gotten my SAR two days ago.
It's something like a report card which I need to fill it myself first
hope I can get a good grade, then again...
I'm only there cause it is a have to
do what you DEEM fit thinks it'll make you happy
who cares who oppose your idea of happiness...just do!
of course must be of positive category.
Maybe this will be my last blog.
cause...
cause...
cause...
forget it
Friday, August 1
(6_^) not so great today
feeling damn sleepy whole week long.
My mom's birthday today, or rather yesterday
but only getting her something this weekend
sharing present with cecilia
she don't find the need to talk to someone if she doesn't feel like it
hmmm...okay...fair enough
not pushing anything also
that's her, nothing got to do with me.
She can do whatever as long as her world is intact
and there is a smile on her face
nothing really matters
(@_@)~sleepy
Oyasumi....everybody!
Lots of redundant work tomorrow as usual
feeling damn sleepy whole week long.
My mom's birthday today, or rather yesterday
but only getting her something this weekend
sharing present with cecilia
she don't find the need to talk to someone if she doesn't feel like it
hmmm...okay...fair enough
not pushing anything also
that's her, nothing got to do with me.
She can do whatever as long as her world is intact
and there is a smile on her face
nothing really matters
(@_@)~sleepy
Oyasumi....everybody!
Lots of redundant work tomorrow as usual
Friday, July 25
S A T U R D A Y
have to wait that long just to see my dear...argh!
Listening to chopin now. One of my fave pianist though most favourite is of course the one who plays
occasionally for me (^_^)
Feel sleepy but don't wish to sleep
work awaits me tomorrow at my desk
I want them to all go away hence need to get all of them done
by this week that is.
My mom's birthday is coming
but I am as broke as can be
what am I going to do...have "dough" coming in on the 29th
so not all that bad.
Suppose to meet up with some of my friends today but in the end
all couldn't make it.
I wonder when Faith will be coming back
Miss her...and she says that she is more than willing to have me over to work for her.
Hope I could be up to the task.
I am getting rusty in theatre practice sigh!
Need to polish up as soon as NS nightmare is over.
where is dear today?
watching Bachelorette...maybe she wants to be one
fine. No qualms
I'll shut up now
Goodnight world
Oyasumi...
have to wait that long just to see my dear...argh!
Listening to chopin now. One of my fave pianist though most favourite is of course the one who plays
occasionally for me (^_^)
Feel sleepy but don't wish to sleep
work awaits me tomorrow at my desk
I want them to all go away hence need to get all of them done
by this week that is.
My mom's birthday is coming
but I am as broke as can be
what am I going to do...have "dough" coming in on the 29th
so not all that bad.
Suppose to meet up with some of my friends today but in the end
all couldn't make it.
I wonder when Faith will be coming back
Miss her...and she says that she is more than willing to have me over to work for her.
Hope I could be up to the task.
I am getting rusty in theatre practice sigh!
Need to polish up as soon as NS nightmare is over.
where is dear today?
watching Bachelorette...maybe she wants to be one
fine. No qualms
I'll shut up now
Goodnight world
Oyasumi...
Thursday, July 24
A boy tried all means and ways to convince his parents to buy this toy which he has set his eyes on.
He also managed to be thrifty and saved enough just to prove his eagerness.
And finally he bought it. He treasured it and loved it. He gave all attention to it that everything was
just its background.
As years passby...the toy stood on the shelf
the eagerness that was on it grew up and set his sights on others.
dust settles slowly on the toy
soon forgotten.
As more years passby, the eager boy turned grey
grey in age that is.
He looked into the box which he kept his past
found something familiar
the toy which he loved. He regret and wept.
Why did he grew up?
I don't want to grow up cos I always want to love the toy.
It's that feeling of being with it lost but rekindled,
however too late
I really wish I won't grow up.
Peter Pan I can be?
YAWN! Sleepy...I'll turn in now
He also managed to be thrifty and saved enough just to prove his eagerness.
And finally he bought it. He treasured it and loved it. He gave all attention to it that everything was
just its background.
As years passby...the toy stood on the shelf
the eagerness that was on it grew up and set his sights on others.
dust settles slowly on the toy
soon forgotten.
As more years passby, the eager boy turned grey
grey in age that is.
He looked into the box which he kept his past
found something familiar
the toy which he loved. He regret and wept.
Why did he grew up?
I don't want to grow up cos I always want to love the toy.
It's that feeling of being with it lost but rekindled,
however too late
I really wish I won't grow up.
Peter Pan I can be?
YAWN! Sleepy...I'll turn in now
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